Today as we ( my class ) were walking along for the practical session with the tyl, Lin asked me a very awkward question. In fact, It wouldn't even have been struck as awkward to others, perhaps its just me. Its just...that I've never really thought about it before.
Ok I should probably shut up and type the (freaking) question.
So basically, she asked me who was my best friend in 208. And...and I couldn't answer it. Yeah, thats right, for the first time I couldn't answer something someone asked me.
And you know what?
That, really sucks.
I suppose I've never really considered it important to have a best friend all over the place. I'm satisfied with just a couple, or maybe three and a few whom I can confide to. But... a best friend in every class you go to? Thats way more than I can deal with. Not that I'm friendless or anything, I think I'm fairly ok in terms of class popularity. I sit at the class table, talk to people, have nice table mates and group mates and all but I just never felt it necessary to join any one particular clique and ostracize the rest. I blend in everywhere, and consider everyone my friend. ( And I hope they do, too ) I go by the if-you're-nice-to-me-I'm-nice-to-you rule. It never fails. Usually.
And I'm sick. Sick and tired of random strangers walking up to me and asking "hows your class?". Its one of those unanswerable questions that Mr Hogan keeps going on about. Its not like I would say, " Oh, my class sucks you know and I really want to join this other class. " Yea? That would probably get me a fine for no class spirit or something. How absolutely "fine". Not that I hate my class or anything. In fact I love it. I love everything about sec two actually. The CCA, the people, the coursework, the RS and of course, the social life.
Yes people, I DO have a social life. Which I choose to hide, namely, from people like YOU.
Honestly, I don't get the deal on popularity. Its all superficial anyway. Try getting the miss queen bee to help you when you really need it. It never happens. And what for? To have a person to sit with during lunch? And to have a so called life which basicly involves outings and expenditure? Mounting phone bills?
No thanks, I think I'd really be happier sitting alone at the lunch table with a book. ( Not that I do, of course )
Perhaps I'm just different. I dont care for all this stuff, popularity and all. I'm easily satisfied I guess, and it will probably remain this way. I really am a loner. Even if it does not actually seem like it. Everyone is, inside. And at some point of time. Though many dont admit it.
So then I think I do maybe have an answer for Lin. Not this long stupid ranty blog post of course. But, I'll probably just tell her I don't need one. At least, not one everywhere. And I doubt she would understand or anything but oh never mind.
After all, we're all from the same human race.
P.s. I'm alright. really! Just a random rant probably brought about by reading too much Chick lit on how bitchy people can be.
P.P.S. The RI history thingy was rather pointless actually. All we did was to go there and fill out random worksheets. But the phone card thing they gave was kind of cool though. Even though no one really uses phone cards these days.
And, I realize how extremely traumatizing boy's schools can get. People were calling each other "shaggers" and shouting random expletives at each other. Loudly. And that too in the presence of a teacher.
P.P.P.S. ( I swear this is the last ) It felt good to be loved today. And to know I made people happy and laugh. Thanks, and you know what? I love you too. Take care ok? =) ( It really is a two way thing you know... )
I should really be doing chem now. Oh wells.
Raffles Girl's School BOYS!!! ( RGSB, RBSG, RBS! ) ROFL.
I tend to be very random when surviving on 4 hours of sleep per night. Yawn.
I have a dead blog and tag board now. Whopee.
