Today I broke rule no. 1 of being a happykid.
I cried.
Dont you realise how much you've hurt me? Just by uttering those simple words. Stay.away. Its hurtful. There are too many things in my head right now. Too many thoughts. Too many Feelings. Should I keep waiting? Or should I just move on? Do I even like you? I.need.answers. And Im going to get them.
I hate backstabbers. More than that, I hate backstabbers who lie to you.
My moods change faster than new york city models. Which is very fast.
Why am I always on the recieving end? The one to get hurt. The one to be shoved aside. It sucks. being me. The one always taken advantage of. Once or twice its ok. But ALL THE TIME? 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8. Thats bad.
Jhoot bolna buri baat hai. Yes I know. But sometimes, its impossible to prevent them. I believe in my own wild fantasies. Im living my dreams.
When I should in fact, face reality.
Am I too young? I.am.confused. HELP!
But, if I tell you why, you will hate me. Oh yes you will. Everyone does. Its not anything new.
I hate you but I love you I cant stop thinking of you. Its true, Im stuck on you. Stacie Orrico rocks.
I think randomn anons are like bugs. Bugs meant to be squashed. Idiots and losers, with nothing better to do but make life a living hell for others.
Poor oila. ( what strange names you select. ) Rumours, they just keep spreading.
I dont know what I would have done without you two behind me, watching every step I take. Thanks. =)
Love. Its complicated.
P.s. This is my 80th post! Only twenty more to 100!
As this post is rather memorable, I shall attempt to make it less emoish and filled with teenage angst and worries, by posting randomn tests!
| You Are a Little Scary |
You've got a nice edge to you. Use it. |
And use it I shall, If you annoy me any longer.
| The Keys to Your Heart |
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
How true.
| Your Mouth is a Little Big |
You're not a total tell all, but you don't hide who you are either.
You've struck a good balance between discretion and sharing.
People know you fairly well, at least on a superficial level.
But you save your most revealing secrets for your best friend... or no one! |
What a nice way to say that I talk too much. -.-''
| You Are A Cypress Tree |
You are strong, adaptable, and striving to be content.
You're good at taking what life has to give - even if you don't like it.
A passionate lover who can't be satisfied, you are quick tempered at times.
You hate loneliness, want love and affection, and need to be needed.
A bit of a live wire, you love to gain knowledge any cost... and you can be careless at times. |
Nice, for once this test is mostly accurate.
I managed to play tararumpum on the keyboard today! woots! Well melody I meant. Someone help me figure out the chords! hinthint, a certain shona didi :)
yay my handphone can have phone conferences too! woots. oh wait, that means the phone bills going to hit an ultimate high this time. Fish.
Ahh ahh ahh schools starting in 5 days! maths, you DIE. and the same goes for history pt, geog article response, english review, bio journal and german. merde merde merde I SHOULD have started earlier. Oh my fishing god how am I going to complete all of that. scheisse.
Randomn randomn me. Like I said, my moods change so fast Im already hyper at the end of this blog entry. :p
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