This paragraph is just for the nosy golddiggers after my GPA.
FOR YOUR INFO YOU ASSHOLES
geog was great, History ok, Maths terrible and English atrocious. OK? HAPPY? NO MORE WHAT DID YOU GET EVEN AFTER I GIVE YOU THE LOOK?
Ok Had to let that out, I am very depressed right now. For reasons even I cannot figure out. Ah, the wierdness of me... Things just keep piling on and on, I lost all time for myself, to just think... I think I will quit german very soon, I am not able to cope with it anymore, It is way to stressful.
anyway, its not like anyone would care what I do with my life. Oh wait, some do. Ah I hope I do well in the paper, I really want a 4.0 this time.... I am excited for the geog trip, I cant wait for it! Whoo it will be so damn fun in MALAYSIA doing geogy stuff. Im suddenly beginning to like geog. Perhaps I will take it as one of my subject combinations. Am I really that small. I feel small. And wierd.And Im not afraid to admit, I cried today, for no apparent reason. AHHH.I am getting better at hiding my feelings, I put up a facade in front of the whole world. It is for the best of the people around me. I dont open up much nowadays, maybe I should.
But I am scared of the consequences. I dont want a repeat of last year. I really am trying to forget that. Maybe Im just a coward. There is LD tomorrow, It is one thing Im really looking forward to. I hope mid-year performance goes well. It is the first time I really am going to be performing in front of an audience other than for YAWP. This will have more people. I am scared, not because of stage fright, but because of how bad and lifeless I will look next to the other dramaqueens. I have not talent whatsoever. I am just a wallflower, one who sits there and just does nothing. Maybe I should do something about it. Perhaps I will, tomorrow, I will try, really and genuinely and give 110%. Hopefully things get better.... They already are starting to be.
I am becoming so emo and depressed, its scary.
and its not even funny anymore.
ask no questions and I shall tell you no lies...Labels: confused, moody
