I have changed my mind once again and I have decided to make my blog public again mainly because I find it tiresome to log in everytime I want to read my blog. And anyway it dosent matter whether or not I make it private since no one even reads my blog.
its not like anyone would care if I even deleted my blog and shut myself once again. After talking to numerous people and thinking, I have decided that
- I am stupid and should stop taking things not pertaining to me too seriously. ( I am way too compassionate. Also known as stupidity )
- I have decided to take certain things pertaining to me more seriously.
- I will try to shove off those wierd, mean feelings off my head.
- I am not a loser and therefore I should stop thinking myself as one.
- I am loved, not by everyone but by a certain group of people whom I trust and that is all I need. ( ie. no more loner)
- I will not do stupid things like what happened last year, an incident I want to forget.
- I will not let the mean people in my life control me.
- I will stop bottling up my frustration and let it out before it gets too much.
- I will space out my problems and stop worrying so much about people, even if Im mayonaisse.
- I am going to give time to myself too and not put the entire worlds problems onto my head.
and,
I will try to be a better, more fulfilled person in life.
Well Im done with it. Finally.
I am very scared for tomorrow. I am going to get my MYA results and take my german test of 25%. I am sad. I know I did badly for math. But hopefully History and Geog will help. hopefully. I hate german nowadays, I think I shall quit after this test so that even if I did badly it wont be counted for my GPA. My GPA is already as bad as it is. For some reason, I feel so tired nowadays, even more than I used to be last year. And I find it hard to cope up with my work. But I do feel proud of myself too, I am faring better this year than last year. Maybe its just the general feeling of getting older, even if it is by one year. sigh....
Today we had LD, learnt that we are going to be performing YAWP! again during openhouse which is 10 days laterą„¤ We can barely remember our lines and we are going to be performing in front of hundreds of little p6 kids. Repeatedly. Oh scheisse. Spent most of the time playing games, though we did go through once. No one had the script sadly, so it was mostly based on memory. lekin yeh to possible hain ki agar ham YAWP! ke 3 din pehle rehaerse karke nation-wide competition main 3rd or best poem ki prize mil sakti hain, to hum zaroor ek seedhasadha performance 26th may ko de sakte hain. Well, hope the grammar was right. I really do love poetry, especially performance poetry. hah Im different!
Oh the insanity the insanity!
I am soo going to die for deutsch. I have not studied a thing. not yet. And I have math assignment as well. I can feel myself slipping. faster and faster...Labels: age and change...., poetry
