I need to buck up in my studies. now. not tomorrow not 5 minutes later but now. My studies have improved but they are still not what I expected. At least I seem to be doing well for History, chem, Lit and English. Other than that, my grades suck. Geography just seems so alien to me, as if its in this foreign language which only the great geog experts will be able to master. Each geog lesson, I take notes and nod my head along to the answers. When asked a question, I am able to answer even well sometimes, but somehow,once I step out of the class, I feel as if I know nothing, Im just this dunce waiting to fail.
I dont want to end up a juveline delinquent as Ms Tay was explaining today, I want to do well in my studies and go to Harvard and study law. I want to be something. To do all this, I have to do something about my current study state. I am able to understand everything in class but its just out of class that I feel blank and lost. I have never been able to cultivate discipline, and the masteration of studying. I really have to do something about it. My way of mugging is basicly just sitting and doing assesment books, one after the other. I know that I should really stop doing that and should instead just read my notes and practice them but mugging just seems so fun. ( Due to my sudden passion for english and maths)
I have decided. From nowon, I shall study. Faithfully, every single day. I shall avoid all forms of human and tachnological contact(such as the tv and comp, with the exception of blogging) and retreat to my study every night to practice my various subjects. I shall stick to this until the end of my exams (ahhhh......liberation) and shall not change my study patterns anytime.
It just hit me that people reading this entry would be witnessing the great change in Sarayoo Vaidya, brought about by one very special person. Thank you, you know who you are.
