Things have changed in my life. A lot of things. Schools have changed, timetables have changed and so have people. It really hurts me to see people change, some of them so much, that they are recognisable,both on the inside and outside.
Dont people care about others feelings anymore??? Has the world into this hard and cold inhuman place, incable of giving you that sense of belonging that people always talk about??? WHY???WHY??? must people change???
Just your two words today have hurt me deeply. Must you have said that??? Dont you understand that even I have feelings, no matter how disgusting I am in your eyes. Dont you care anymore??? Dosent anyone care anymore???
My only solace now is mugging. Thats all I do day in and out. Its probably the only thing Im good at. Other than that, Im useless. I cant sing, I cant dance, I cant act, I dont have grace and basicly; I suck at everything I do. Im useless, Im just this useless piece of shit waiting to be flushed away. The only thing thats keeping me alive is mugging. yes mugging. Those hours that I spend in my desolate, lonely study are the only things Im holding onto. Im drowning, drowning in a sea of feelings, clinging desperately to my books, my only solace.
Im worthless and useless. I am of no use.
Im depressed.
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It felt good typing all that stuff. At least I was able to get rid of that weight off my mind. Blogger does help, I suppose. I must now go and mug my english.
